WTF? TOO FUNNY
I should really start writing in this more when I have a chance in the mornings. I just got another nasty email from my the mother of my son. She cracks me up. What a crazy bitch. I was going to light her up, but decided not play her game. Oh well, I feel much better that I basically laughed in her face and told her I'm not playing her games anymore.
Which lead me to my next point - or next event as the case may be. I think my activities outside of our relationship - my skateboarding, hockey, soccer, snowboarding (and mountain biking once the summer starts) is starting to take its toll. I'm thinking about quitting either soccer or skateboarding. I would probably miss skateboarding more, but who knows. I'll play it by ear for right now and see if I can't settle some of the issues that we're having now.
I'll drop more later. . . .
OUT
MONDAY MONDAY
It's early, and I usually don't write this until later in the day. I figured I'm going to write a book about how the Wireless industry is a racket. I figure the book will compare the mob to the wireless carrier. How they continually screw the customer out of money and have no regrets for what they do.
I'm going to start with my own experiences and then build case studies on the customers that I personally know got screwed, the selling techniques these companies use and all the other BS that follows.
Oh well. As for my weekend - it was good. Hockey on Friday night, Saturday was errands and cleaning. Sunday was some of the same and some good QT time with the gif. Oh yeah, and I got my car fixed and back. My own stupidity cost me loosing my car for a few days and about $180.00. I started my car, turned it off and then tried to start it right away again when it was cold. What an idiot I was. I flooded the damn thing and then needed to get new sparkplugs and get the oil changed, Let that be a lesson - huh?
When I was coming home from hockey friday night, something hit me. As my life has evolved, I have always realized some goal. When I was in high school, I played sports. Scoring a goal, or winning a game or a tournametn meant something to me. When I was in college, it was to complete school and get a degree. College gave me a profound sense of accomplishment, I played soccer in college. We won games, we went to nationals. I was apart of that. Now, it seems, these things mean very little to me. I play soccer because I want to keep in shape. I don't like the guys I play with on many levels. If we want to win the league, then let's make a real effort to get better. It's like they want to win, but have no desire to improve to get there. Thus, I'm stuck. I play hard, but for no reason. There is no sense of accomplishment. Even if I score - it means little to me. I play hockey because I love the game. If we win, we win. It has no meaning for me. I thought when I got back into it, it would - but now, there is nothing.
I just started skateboarding again. My first session was a lot of fun. It was cool. The first time I tried to skate again, I skate scared, I didn't want to slam. Well, I couldn't do anything. this time around, I just put my brain on auto-pilot and let go. It was an amazing feeling.
So here I am, thinking about what I've done lately that has been some kind of accomplishment. Is getting married an accomplishment? Is settling down and accomplishment? Right now I work in a small office in an industry that I love and hate all at the same time. I am a techno geek - so giving up and moving to another industry would be hard for me. Maybe it's just complacency? On that drive home, I suddenly felt empty. Like the last few years have left me nothing to look back on as significant achievments. Now I know what professional atheletes go through. When the music stops and the fans stop cheering for you - it makes your life very hollow. Nobody to challenge you, push you further. It's a very weird feeling. One that kinda hit me all at once.
So where do I go from here? I guess I have to buck up and take the plunge. Get my magazine started, get my website jump started and hit the ground running. I'm already looking for another job. When it slows down around here at MCU, I'll start writing again. I have a few ideas for a book. I just need to crytalize them and get them going.
And so, I stand at another crossroads poised to get going again. I'll call Inch today and see how his project is coming. Me? I'm going to make a list and set some deadlines for me. See what shakes out and what transpires.
I need to do some relaxation excercises tonight. Get my mind back at ease, and get centered.
Well, to all,
THATS ALL I GOT FOr NOW!
TOAST
WIRELESS RACKETS
Ok, so I work in a small office that does wireless. We rep for Nextel, Verizon, T-Mobile, Sprint and AT&T.
I had the unfortunate incident to have to call Nextel because a customer of mine cancelled her contract several days after she got her account set up. She was porting her number from Qwest to Nextel. What a fucking disaster. Funny, they have no record fo her calling in, and thus have billed her and now she seems to be stuck in a two year contract that she doesn't want.
Nextel is the biggest pile of shit company. They won't do anything for thier customers, they fuck their customers and every turn and give nothing back. I have officially stopped selling thier product. Unless somebody wants it - I'm not selling it. I've spent more times trying to reconcile somebody's Nextel account than any other carrier we work for. Is this what customer service is coming to?
As soon as I can, I'm getting out and writing a SCATHING book on the industry. The inner workings of how the wireless companies monopolize and fuck their customers. Signing them up for long term contracts without their consent, ruining their credit, and basically leaving them with nothing but hate.
Am I bitter, nope. I just am sick and tired of dealing with people whose job it is to make sure the comapnies money flows in and nothing goes out - no matter what.
Oh well - so much for my ranting.
So it was my son't birthday yesterday. He turned 9 and is so much more mature than his age. His mind is just razor sharp. Unfortunately, he has a touch of his father's laziness that I'm trying to work out of him. Instilling a hard working attititude is what my goal is. If I can do - then I truely have accomplished something as a parent.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh my next rant. So I'm from Edina. Yeah, my parents were well to do off. So I'm at my alma mader's hockey game last night. I try talking to the guy on my right. An older gentleman - prolly in his 40's. He seems to know all the kids by thier first name. So I try to engage in some sort of conversation. The guy just straight up ignores me. What a stuck up cock. If I could've, I would drilled the guy. It seems that the more things change, the more they stay the same.
When I graduated from High School, I vowed that I never wanted to see the people that had made my life hell for three years. Too many attitudes, too much, "we're better than everybody else", too many politics, too much bullshit and fakeness to go around. Yeah, I can appreciate what my school gave me, I can appreciate the sports programs. It's really the people that drive me nuts. I lived, I've learned and matured along the way. Maybe it's just a love/hate relationship I have. I can let go of all the bullshit, but will always have a place in my heart for the city I grew up in.
This what saddens me about my son. He will never have the opportunity I had to make freinds, to play in one city. To take everything in and appreciate what this state has to offer. I had a brilliant upbringing and I think the opportunity to have what I had. . is. . .gone forver.
Why does life suck so bad sometimes??
THINK
TOAST
LOYALITY SUCKS
I have come to find out that loyality doesn't really shit anymore. Even the people I feel I am close with have done some pretty shitty things to me. I guess we are living in a world where people only care for themselves anymore. This is pretty cleat in the sports industry. Everybody looking for the next big thing to get them to the superbowl, NBA Championship, Stanley Cup, etc. coaches get fired after winning seasons, players get traded or put on waivers. Oh well - I guess my attitude has changed over the past few years. It's not that I don't care about people, it's just that I look for my common interests most of the time.
On a brighter note, at least I'm going to go skateboarding this week. I may have to sacrifice my hockey Friday night - but I'm not sure yet. I've only had my board about a week and nothing has really happened yet. B is sick and we were going to move my TV and stuff back to our house - but that plan got nixed cuz B got my sinus infection. It's cool because I can tell pretty easily when she's not in a good mood. It makes life sooooooooooo much easier. I figured Iw as going to go skate tonight from 9-11, but forgot my checkbook at home - FUCK!
Things have been really slow lately. I'm going to put an effort into getting a buisness plan started for my FREE SKATE company. I'm meeting a rep from GE Plastics tomorrow around 3pm. I'm really excited to tell this guy what I want to do. I think it's a killer idea. I guess only time will tell.
I miss Cody a lot already. It's hard to have my son around so much and then he leaves and *poof* nothing. no laughter, no yelling and shouting to fill up our house. It saddens me to think that he'll be moving around every few years. Never to really settle down anywhere. I hope when he is old enough that he'll move back and leave Karis and come live with me full time.
So B and I have gone to church once since we've seen her pastor. My spirtuality is getting weak and I KNOw I need to do more praying and relaxation stuff. Maybe tonight I'll put aside some time to that - now that our room is almost finished.
So that's all I got right now. Hopefully I'll get some more deep thoughts laters. . .
TOAST
THINGS CHANGE
Oh well, another day where I was out driving in my car, coming down with some deep thoughts. I get back in the office and *blah* nothing. So now I can only update you as to what the new stuff in my life is/are.
I'm studying up on the possibility that several of the llarge wireless carriers are carrying out monopolistic business practices. I've started a letter to the attorney general and sent off several e-mails stating my case. Although this industry sucks ass, I'm still trying to get several of my ideas off the ground to start another comapny. This way, when MCU goes under, I can easily have something to fall back on and hopefully support myself with. I'm also actively working on a business plans for each endeavor.
Other than that - B and I have almost finished the downstairs room and everything is going well. I went snowboarding for the first time yesterday and I'm sore as hell. I think I'm going to go skateboarding sometime this week - which should be pretty cool. I was thinking about taking B's camera for some pics too.
Other than that - thats about it. I'll be getting my computer soon, THEN I'll drop some more deep thoughts.
till then,
TOAST!
I WISH
Cody came back and we had an AWESOME weekend to finish off his visit. His flight was at 12:15. We got to the airport early and of course his flight was late. It was tough for me to see him go. Life would be much easier if he still lived here in Minnesota. The airport thing is getting harder on me emotionally. I guess I should just buck up and deal with it, but sometimes I guess shit just isn't that easy.
I wish I had more time to spend with my son. I already have regrets about Karis getting married and moving away. Although the stress in my life is considerably less, not seeing my son gets hard. This must be the trade off I will have to deal for a long, long, time. At least I have a great support system in my finace.
The "What The Fuck" quote of the month goes hands down to Karis. She called my employer and told Gail (one of the owners) that, "It's Karis, you know, the one Karl has said all those great things about." Thanks for confirming to my boss that your still totally fucked in the head. Gail was pretty shocked by what she said. "Why would you SAY something like that to someone's boss?" "What was she thinking?" Ummm Gail, that's easy - she doesn't. More and more frequently I've found out.
I wish I had a notebook computer. Then while I'm in my car and thinking about all the crazy shit going on in the world, I can drop some SERIOUS deep thoughts. As it stands, I get back to my office after hearing Dennins Prager and just go blank. Perhaps when we get our basement room finished, then B and I will have our computers set up and doing that will much easier.
Oh well - did I mention I got my board together and it looks pretty good. I'll let you know how skating goes this week. B already warned me that I better not break anything prior to our wedding June 4th. It's going to be hard for me to get past being a pussy and not taking chances. Yeah, I don't want to slam. But then again - I also want to push myself. Getting back into skating is going to be more of a personal goal for me. Getting back what I once had - and then pushing it a level further. Just feeling a personal achivement is what I want. Do it for fun, do it for myself.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh more projects to keep me busy as well. I want to start a magazine about tranisition skating only. Pools, ramps, vert. No mundane street skating. Yeah handrails and ledges are cool. How many times do I have to see somebody do the same trick over and over? It's getting to a point where it's bascially add more steps, longer rails. Yippey skippy dee. I think vert and transitional skating is what separates the good from the bad.
Project #2 - Start a company that deals with public places that skateboarders have "ruined". I saw a local TV station do a piece on a company called "skatestoppers". They put up stupid looking clamps and metal hindges so skaters cant grind ledges and pinic tables and the such. I want to find a better alternative that would incorporate exisiting and new construction that skaters COULD use and it would not affect the objects being used. I've already come up wiht the material I'm going to use and will contact several companies.
Project #3 - Start another company that is a mobile repair service. This has come about due to the fact that we may be losing ALL of our licenses with the carriers we rep for. Verizon, Nextel and T-Mobile are all threatening to yank our licenses if our numbers don't come up in the next few months. I'll have to talk with Tom to get the specifics.
Alright - that's all I got for now. . . . . .
LATERS EVERYBODAY!
