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THAT HAUNTING FEELING. . .

Wow! So much to cover in the what, last 4 months. I'm so Catholic, I feel so guilty that I haven't kept this up to date. With my new job, new house (cutting my lawn now takes over an hour!) my son coming this month, I just haven't had the free time to write as often as I would like. There have been so many times while sitting awake in bed that something hit me, I just want to get up, run down stairs and jot it down. Oh well, such is life, you only get one shot. Some of thos impulses you have to lsiten to and others, well, they just drift away as you fall into never never land.

Lately, I've been having these incredible feelings of being inadequate. It hit me again last night when I was watching the show "inked". I won't bore you with the details of the show other than there was a tattoo artist who had a son he hadn't seen in a while since he took this new job at the tattoo parlor in Vegas (his son was in LA). He talked about how he just wanted to spend as much time as he could with his son and how much he missed him and how he had grown up in poverty and he wanted to give his son the life he never had, etc, etc. It was pretty moving for me, and I could tell the guy had his priorities in the right place and was a good guy. So I go to bed and start thinking about what I've given back to my father. And that's when it hit, he gave me everything, he was like the guy in the show. He grew up with nothing, gave me everything, and amde my life SO much easier. With him getting older, I can't escape the thoughts of my parents passing away and it just blows me away. I just broke down in the darkness. I did finally fall asleep, but it was not easy, and the thoughts just kept flooding my brain. I jsut kept thinking I need to make sure I can take of them when the time comes. This means kicking ass at my new job, making every opportunity to build my financial picture with the consideration of taking care of them. My parents are pretty stuborn and I know they will have nothing to do with that - but I WANT to give them back something. This is where these feelings tear at my heart.

Onto something better, and less depressing. . .

So what is new? Not much, you can add another person I know that is going voer to Iraq. My manager at work is getting called up to go over to Iraq. He's a LT. Colonel in the National Guard. He said he'll be back sometime in 2007, and will be in communique during his time over there. This week he's really been a ghost, jsut geting all of his ducks in a row for when he leaves. I feel for the guy, no doubt about it.

Our summer soccer team is kicking MAJOR ass lately. After winning the indoor champioship, we've been rolling the competition in our summer league. The next few games will be critical, but I think we're well on our way to locking up the league.

What's been in the news lately?

The London bombings
Lance Armstrong's 7th Tour De France Victory
Karl rove on Valerie Plame
Iraq Iraq Iraq Iraq
Hockey's CBA almost done

Hockey got cancelled, for how long, I don;t know, but for now, while my son is here, all bets are off. I've played two games, and have done nothing to keep my cherubic figure in shape. After my son leaves, it's back on the bike, and back ont he skateboard. My son has my old setup (it's a "new school" set up and I don't like it very much)which means, it's time for a new set up for daddy!!!

That's all I have for now, I'm at work and gotta get back to hittin the phones. I wish I could write more, but you know how it goes. . .

My pledge for August - I'm about to turn 35!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Is to keep this bugger a bit more up to date - okay? Okay Dokay.

Gotta get that pic O' the day up too. . .so many choices to too! Should it be Lance? Maybe something Hockey realted in light of the league getting back on it's feet and ending the lockout? Maybe Danny Way jumping the Great Wall of China?

Or maybe just something completely different. . a tattoo I want to get done sometime in the near future. .



My ANGEL. . .


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