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LIFE CAN BE RATHER DEPRESSING SOME TIMES

News flash - right? I just got back from watching, "The Good Shepard" which was quite depressing. The movie is essentially about the "humble" beginnings of the CIA. It focuses on Matt Damon's character and his life while all this was going on. I'm not going to bore you with any long winded review, but at the end of the movie, nobody gets what they want. And Damon's character is never happy, even when the CIA is officially formed and he has reached the #2 spot in the agency. Sad, so very sad.

I guess when I see a movie I feel is this depressing, it really makes me stop and look at my own life and take stock. I dont want to end up like the charcaters in the movie did. Alone with nothing. All the characters seemed to find happiness, but it was only fleeting. The son has his girlfriend (a KGB agent) who falls in love with Damon's son. Only to get murdered (because she was a security risk) before ther wedding. Damon and his wife (Angelina Jolie) are estranged throughout the movie and never connect. Damon falls in love with a girlfriend from college, only to have Jolie get pregnant and so he has to marry her - negating his love for his college sweetheart. All in all, everybody was looking something they could never find or have.

Sometimes I'm really thankful for what I have. It's not to think where I could be right now without the life I have now. I feel sorry for people who fractered realtionships and search their whole lives and come up empty. This brings me to the next point - my annual snowboard trip.

I haven't gone the past two years, and this year I was hoping things would be different. Friend 1 rolled his ankle and is still recovering. Friend 2 got screwed and work and has to work over the weekend we were supposed to go. Its hard to think something which brought me so much happiness over the years has faded rather quickly. After thinking long and hard, I felt my heart just wasn't in it anymore. Maybe it was the weather - no snow for the first few months of the year, then we got snow, and then the temperature dropped off well below zero. Maybe I'm just a snowboarding snob, but I want the conditions to be almost perfect. In any case, the trip is going ot be cancelled. My buddy asked me if this was possibly the end of our annual trip. I didn't have a good answer. I guess when things are good and fun, you never want it to end. It's hard to end something that's been going on for so long. At my age, I'm coming to the realization all good things must come to an end, which is happening all too frequently.

Anyways, I don't have a nice pic of the day, just some depressing views of reality.

I'll have more "happy" news later. . ..


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